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12 March 09, 12:13am > 09 June 09, 11:15pm
What you had supported and gave, I'll remember it like it was a part of me.
Who am I bluffing? I admit that I was attached for 2months and 29days. I merely lied to everyone that I was single, how horrible I was. But I have my reasons to it, and it was that some people will find him and I don't want that to happen. It seems like now its all over.
Starting of our relationship was slow, we thought of longer days than it was actually. We called each other every night without fail. Our first outing was to Fort Siloso, as I needed to complete my project work there. He cared so much for me then. I wondered what could have happened.
Whatever I asked him to treat me, he would. I recorded down what he had treat me, it was endless. Even every other call, I would write down in my handphone's draft. I thought, he will always be there.
Around the end, I did not contact him for like, 7 days. I kneeled down on the floor, thinking whether he would still remember me. On 09 June 2009, I sent hima message: Am I forgotten? :( He replied: -censored- Sorry I couldn't say. Just that he mentioned about we can't be together am I should find people who is better for me.
I cried so much that my eyes are swollen. My heart felt so heavy and each breathing was hard. I see blood but I cant feel the pain. I hated him so much for that few mintues. Alot of things revealed, and I even said that if I were to be too agitated, I would stab a knife into him whenever I see him. Of cause, that wasn't half truth but a little bit of lie.
A few quarrelings and haish, I couldn't force him to change his mind. After a few mintues of thinking, I have decided to just be his gan mummy. Looks like, this will be the only relation between us.
Don't worry boy, I don't think I'll ever fall into you again. I don't like back my ex-steadys so easily :) But I won't forget you for what you did.
P.JH, my little boy child. Although you are taller but I can't accept the fact! :X
You were my best.
I may take a few days, weeks or probably months to recover from this relationship. Who knows, someone better than him appears and let me forget about him. Haha, it will take quite a while.
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Thankyou all truckloads: Jerome.L, Jerome.C, Chau Liang for consolling me. ^^v
And Nicholas.T, its my choice to tell you. Now I have the courage, you annoy me. I am not even your anything, why should you care so much?
